Ode to You ....from Me

brknangel · brknangel on Sun Sep 21, 2008 7:52 am

Ode to You....from Me

You came blaring into my life
One cold winter's night
I didn't want to let you in
Lonely, cute, and sweet
But you were much too young
For this time weathered battered heart
Still you persisted
At times even insisted
That you and I were meant to be
I politely said no thanks
And you quietly went away

Then in a weak moment
I let my guard down
And gave you access to my heart
You seized that moment
And marched right in
Listened to my stories
My hurts, fears, and pain
Promised it would never happen again
You promised forever, well
How was I to know
You were just looking for
a soft place to land.

Something in your eyes and smile
Touched my soul that night
Made me want to believe
In love again....why heart?
I can almost count the moments
When love visited me again
The smiles, the laughter, all too brief
But oh, for a second I believed
I thanked God daily for the gift of our love
Amazed beyond my wildest dreams
That love still existed even for me
I rested securely in our love
Gave you my heart, access to my soul
Your love began to heal old wounds
"Foreve" was looking pretty good

Then in an instant, a moment, a breath
I turned and you were gone
Taking pieces of my soul and heart
Leaving gaping wounds to heal again
For months I wandered in oblivion
Anchored only to my precious Lord
Life crashing down all around me
Fiery darts of my enemy
Bound and determined to destroy me
But God took those shattered pieces
And slowly made me whole again
Time passed, pain eased
As I clung to my Rock

Then suddenly you were there again
Changed, matured, wanting back in
You spoke the right words
Gaining access to places you'd already been
I prayed and cautiously let you back in
I thanked God for a healing miracle
That brought you back to me
We settled back into life
Normal for a while, though brief

Looking back I guess the fire was gone
Whatever melted our hearts into one
We went through the motions
Void of any real depth or emotion
Still I promised forever in my vows
Vows I'd always meant to keep
So forever is what I planned
Though my trust in you was weak
Over time I felt you pulling away
But I ignored the obvious signs
After all, you said forever
Maybe you meant it this time

Then one ordinary day
I looked and you were gone
Vanished again like a vapor, a mist
Leaving nothing but memories behind
No note, no call, no words at all
As weeks turn into months
Oh Lord hold me close to you
As I travel through another storm
Numb inside as feelings die
Why didn't you just stay gone?

Now you're blaring your way
Into someone else's life
Like a raging storm you quickly strike
And leave your own brand
Of destruction and shattered lives
Smiling your smile and telling your lies
But I'm a survivor and daughter of God
He's seen me through life's devastating falls
He's my fortress, my protector and strength
But my God won't let me be bitter
And He says I must forgive
So to please Him, I will

I release you and my pain to Him
He keeps my tears, He knows my heart
My intentions, thoughts, deeds and desires
A just and merciful Father
Will one day make all things new
All things right, all pain will cease
But for now I must do His will
So even though you don't deserve it
I forgive you and release you
For I don't deserve the grace
And mercy He extends to me
My heart will heal, my life go on
A few more tears, another scar
A little older and wiser still
Because of Him ...a Survivor

Thank you precious Jesus for seeing me through another storm in my life....I love you, Cheri